What's Standing in My Way?

I have been reflecting on my life lately … where it is going, who I want to become and what is important and meaningful for me to experience in order to move forward in the direction that I want to go in my life.

While pondering this, a number of thought bubbles popped into my mind – perhaps, the timing just was not quite right especially with your already busy work schedule, how dare you take time for yourself while others were already counting on you to be there for them, how irresponsible of you, would it not be easier just to put this off this until you had some vacation time, can you really afford not just the time but the money to do this – bubbles that had a eerie familiarity about them.

I began to realize that there have been numerous times in the past when I have sat back waiting for all of the conditions to be right … for events to finally fall into place … so that I could fit in the things that would enable my life to move forward in a new direction and so that it would ease the conditioned guilt felt in doing so. These seemingly rationale reasons always seemed to justify why it just was not the "right" time to do so. No wonder life stays the same. Past personal history moves forward into the present as the same choices are made over and over again. There is no such thing as the "right" time. The only time is the "chosen" time when I decide to make something new happen in my life.

I pictured all of these responses that were frequently put in my way and then it hit me. The reflection that I was seeing in my holographic mirror was a view of all of these blocks and (could it really be?) holding on to every one of them was "me". Incredible! The only thing standing between me and the life that I wanted to create was ME! Indeed, "I" was putting all of these conditions in my way. Come on … how could that be? Don’t such things just pop up in our lives or do we actually put them there? Aren’t there times that we are totally unwilling victims or are we always powerful creators? Are we at cause or are we at effect in our lives?

I know that in a holographic universe, the world "out there" is really only a reflection of my world within. Therefore, if I am the creator of my world, then, you guessed it, I am creating ALL of it! Yes, I am creating my world and, then, experiencing each and every moment of it. That includes the roadblocks, barriers, and stuck feelings as well as the easy and effortless times.

If so, then, what is the intelligence behind my creating these conditions? Am I not ready for the changes that will occur? Is it all too overwhelming to think that I could actually have what I wanted if only I would just get out of my way? Was I succumbing to my usual culturally conditioned responses and beliefs? Getting curious is a way for me to become more conscious of what is going on … about the truth behind this intelligent response.

If the blocks are in my life, it is because I have created those blocks. If something is standing in my way, it is because I have placed it there. My life is a holographic universe reflecting back my moment to moment creative power. All is there for me to learn, for me to evolve, for me to become who I was incarnated to become in this lifetime.

My life is the sum total of all of the choices that I make moment to moment. If, in this moment, I do not make the choice that moves me forward in the direction towards the life that I want then I am making the choice to continue to have the life that I have. Because we are creators as human beings, there is no such thing as never creating. I am always in the process of keeping what I have by repetitively creating the same life that I already have or I am developing something new by making new and different life choices. Do I want to remain who I am or do I want to become who I want to become? This choice is always mine. There is actually tremendous power in knowing this.

So, here’s to becoming more and more conscious on a daily basis in my life. In this way, I can make the choices that will move my life forward in each and every moment. Here’s to not being held back by the illusions that I create, illusions that have previously held me back from having the life that I want. And, in this holographic universe, here’s to those of you who also resonant to this and who can begin to create the same movement in your life!